i ada beberapa benda yang i tak faham lo.
cuz..
mmmm
just now i got alot things wanna say wan leh
now duno why like stuck already.
hai..

i wonder whats up for christmas this year.
or what up for new years this year..
hopefuly tak boring eh.
or as usual i just gona duduk kat rumah hisap ganja onli and layan by myself ahahah.
seems like it.
but
boleh lah ..
ahahaa..

oh..  i finally change phone d eh.! not bad ah
i got a laptop already oso
i got new watch also eh!
and not to forget my rempit shoes..
ah..

ahahah.. car lo.. dno whennnn ah
ermmmm..

i wonder how u doing now d eh..
nowadays u tak layan me d eh. haha..
what happening wif ur life nowadays? busy ker?

me leh. still the same eh
no difference.
everything still the same as usual.
seriously everything still the same.
ntg changed at all oso.

i know i've always told ppl. if i could turn back time. i WOULDNt..
but now eh.. start to feel like i really want my past back.
i'm alot happier tht time.
everythings a alot less fucked up than like this.
hai...

just finished watching phobia 2. ahh atlast got chance to go and watch it eh b4 it finished showing in the cinemas.
it was awesome lah.
seriously damn great loh.
thai films seriously a class of their own lo.
great.. great great.. so damn gladd i watched it.

and sooooooooo.. hmm.. guess i better start planing for christmas and new year plan..
:)

fucking hate this feeling
nothing is going right.
fuck this shit man
fuckkkk it

girls just use me to get back at their bf's...

its cool to be secretly in love with someone and to write every little detail in a journal/blog or watever and one day. one day when u finally let go and say . ok. its just never gonna happen.. and u start reading whatever tht was written. ahaa u'll luff ur ballz out thinkin what the helllll man...

yes.
 she's 19 or was it 20..
she's getting over some relationship tht isnt going her way.
she's cute
she probably stays around this area
she's a pet lover
she luvs food
she's petite
and lastly she doesnt have any idea who the fuck i am. :)

its something like when we hav a crush towards those celebrities kannnn.. aahhaa
she cute doh~

ahaha tidoooooooooo~

i'm doing the best i can now while i still can to post before i'm out and over. ahahha

its not that fun smoking alone but. oh well. it works lah when you're bored.
like how i am bored now . but .  boleh lah . ahahha..

when my brain is still able to do this and then i  shall
ahaha i'm just repeating wut i just said

fuck. looks like i'm not that okay already.
but even still. i shall do my best.

ok. so lets see . what huh..
hmmm. oh good boy stay at home on friday nite lah. ceh.
mmm

i wanna watch phobia 2 man.
still tak jumpa anybody to watch tht show wan .. ehmm..
but still wanan watch man. but hopefuly its not over when i finally can.
hmmm..

its all getting numb nowww.. fucking hellll.
ahahhahaa..

allright.
what more to say.
sure got something wan.
lets see.

fuck it lah.
ahaha
over n outtt

i said that whatever i did was just to make you happy.

i said that the outcome doesnt matter, as long as it made your happy day wonderful..

having said all that, why am i feeling so....  hmm.. just cant find the word to describe this feeling..

if i believe in retribution.. i must hav did some really fucked up things previously to be going thru what i am going thru now..

it's been years and i still havent feel happy as how i did before..

i havent been able to sleep properly for years..

and when i say properly i mean seriously have a seriously nice comfortable sleep.

no matter i'm sleeping in a 5 star hotel or back home sweet home.. i'd still wake up feeling so .. hmm and here i cant find a word to describe tht feeling too..

there are so many things in my mind nowadays that i just have no idea what is seriously bothering me..

i have to get myself so damn tired until i can just doze off lying down on the sofa or something then only i can just wake up the next morning feeling all fucked up again.

i'm kinda enjoying my work right now..

but its just not paying off.

i'm still figuring out how to survive with all the delayed payments..

and even with the delayed payments its still not enough for me at all..

guess you can have everything good in life.

something is there just to fuck things up.

dad says eh why he needs an IpHone woh..

his phone still ok what .. can use.

ahaha.. correcto~ i can still use my phone.

lets hope next time when he needs a transplant or something i'll just say. aiyahhhhh why eh. his heart still ok whatttt. can use mah.. ahahhaa...

aiks why suddenly talk talk until dad already.. 

i wish that was my problem.. then seriously problem settled lo cuz its nothing to shout about after all.

too bad its not hai.. kamlan.

ah.. its been long since i had time to sit there at the garden and take a look at my jap rose .. see. berbunga already.. so what le.. next day its gonna be dead also. hai.. 

get wat i mean?

sure feels weird to be doing nothing but work. work. work. work and work non stop. and with non-stop i seriously mean no time at all for anything else but sleep. and that too is down to 2 -3 hours of sleep per day. . 

it was supposed to be sunday start at 5 in the morning. til 6pm. but ended up morning til 1:30am the next day.

had to get up again at 5 the next day ...continue with a different shoot. . and then end at 6pm. and continue again another shoot at another location til 1am. ended up. we got nothing in the morning cuz it was raining. so we were doing product shots on location.. under the rain. and had to rush down to the ccurve to ccontinue with another shoot til 3 plus in the morning..

wrap?

not yet lahhhhhhhhhhhhh..

good thing they pushed the time abit and therefore i get to wake up at 9 in the morning. but it was still early anyways. digi done at around 3in the afternoon. and 'm back home. half dead.. mmm.. no its not the end of it..

twister shoot not done yet. its suppose to be next monday.. but i guess i'll hav another 5 more days to rest before another hellish day at work.. 

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....

what day is it today...

m...m..m..m.mm

hope u doing good :)